Peaches464

             ~Mystery~ As we grew and the days went by, We grew apart just as quick as we came together, We never realized what was going on, We never paid attention to what was happening, Then something happened that no one could fix, We said things we didn't mean, And did things we weren't supposed to do, We never knew what future times would bring, We never really cared, Now those times are here, And the closeness we used to have, Has suddenly disappeared. By Shorty

When you're around other people, It's like you change. I just can't keep up with your emotions, Believe me, I've tried. But your mind is always turning. I just don't know what to do. If you give me answers, you're sure to see results. I just hope you can understand, But it's not all my fault, i swear. You just keep me in suspense, And now my mind keeps turning. So, all I ask, Is just help the maddness STOP!

* ~Only If You Were Here...~* Only If you were here, you would understand.             Only if you were here, would you know why I  am the way am. Only if you were here, could you live the lifestyle I live then and today! Only if you were here, could you get why this place means so little to me. Only if you were here, you would be able to understand ME!

~ Trapped~ I'm sitting here in the corner while everyone else is                         running scared. I don't know what their running from,                                       but one thing I know is I'm trapped between them                                                                 and the dredded life their living. The reprecutions                                                   overwhelming to a person who loves pain and I know                                                       I'm trapped, trapped forever.

~Without~   I never thought my dreams would come true,                                                 the way they did the day I met you, all my                                                   troubles went away, and when I look at you, I                                                 relize I don't know what I would do, without you.

   ~I Wish~     I wish I could talk to father time and make the hands turn back.     I wish I didnt make the mistakes I made.     I wish I could take back all the pain I caused your broken heart.     I wish I knew what to do to make things go back to the way they used to be.     I wish I could make you come back to me.     I wish I knew all the answers to make the pain just go away.

~Sometimes~     Sometimes I wonder about you.     Sometimes I wonder about me.     Sometimes I wonder what went wrong.     Sometimes I wonder why we can no longer be.     Sometimes I think it was all my fault.     Sometimes I think back on how I could have made everything right.     Sometimes I feel as if I can't go on with the pain.     Sometimes I just give up.     Sometimes I realize nothing can ever be done to make the wrongs turn right.

      ~ Why...?~ Why do I do the things I do? Why do I say the things I say? Why do I do all these things to hurt you? Why do I make things so hard on you? Why do I let on how I'm feeling? Why do I bother you with all the problems I'm having? Why do I have to live the lifestyle I live? Why am I the way I am? Why..?  Why..?                       Why..?

~I Wonder~ I wonder why I can't be your little girl anymore. I wonder why you just push me away. I wonder why you can't tell me the truth. I wonder why our relationship will never be the same. You used to be my hero. You used tobe the one I looked up to. Daddy, I wonder why nothing between us can ever be right. I wonder was it you or me. I wonder why we can't be normal. I wonder why nothing goes right. I wonder is we'll ever be like we used to be. And most of all, I wonder you'll ever be able to love me for me.

  ~Our Side~ The things I do make me wonder about me.  Sometimes I scare me. The things you do make me wonder about you.  Sometimes you scare you and me. Sometimes people are so mean to the ones so different.  But, did we ask to be this way. Sometimes people need to leave us alone.  Stop treating us like we are always doin wrong. One day we will show you and the world.  We're better than you think. We're good kids, we just need the chance to tell you our side of life.

I'm sorry that I hurt you And I'm sorry that I lied. If only you could see All these tears that I've cried. I made a huge mistake, I know this for a fact. I really wish, I could take it all this shit back. I wanted to stay the truth. I tried to tell my story. But you didn't care. You didn't even worry. I hate my-self for this. And I have the scars to hide. Even though I know you hate me. I'm going to pretend that you lied. If you could forget this. It would make my life better. I'm going to try and tell you why I did this, And I will write it into a letter. This poem really makes no sense. But to me it can't be sane. Bec

Why do you haunt me? Why do you flood my dreams and thoughts? What did I ever do to you to deserve this? I hate you for doing this to me. Why do you torture me to no end with your laughter and smiles? I can't bear to watch you this happy because I wish I was the one who caused it. I know that there's no chance between us. You have so many around you, I could never compare. All of them so pretty and closer in age, what kind of hope could I possibly have? Instead I watch from the sidelines, I see you laughing and having fun. Everything's going blurry, are these... my tears?

My days are dark. As are my nights. I am sick of this pain. Sick of this life. Completely torn apart. My heart and my soul. This agonising pain. Has taken it's toll. I can no longer take it. It's getting harder to breathe. I have only one choice. I choose to leave. So this is my note to say goodbye. Promise not to forget me. Promise not to cry. This pain deep inside no one can see. This pain will be the death of me. I wish it did not have to end like this. But there is not any other way. Death is coming. Death is here. Live for tomorrow and not for today. Tell my sisters I am sorry, But no one could see. This pain deep

Once things start going back to normal, You shoot them down once again. All I can do anymore is sit here and ask you why, But you can't even answer that for me. You fill my eyes with these tears, You fill my heart with this fear, And you fill my head with these thoughts. I really wish I didn't care about you, And I really wish you cared about me, But you don't..I can't believe you. Always remember dad and never forget, I love you..whether you love me back.

Honestly no one ever understood, What we've been through, What we were put through, And they never will. When things came crashing down, You stuck by my side and I stuck by yours because that's what sisters do. We had so much on our hands, And it's like no one even knew. We kept getting blamed for, Getting accused of things that weren't true. We stayed strong because that's what sisters do. We're sisters and best friends for life, And nothing and no one will ever change that!

Dedicated To The Haters Whispers all around me Saying things I don't want to know But can't help but hear Why do you judge me? When you hardly even know me So you think I should change Yet people are always telling me Be yourself, because that is who I am Well I'm being me You're the one who won't accept it I don't know why I try But try is what I do To make you proud to know me But everything I do for you Is wrong I may not show it But it hurts me deep down To know you'll never love me But think I'm useless Always in your way So I may not be perfect And I may make a lot of mistakes I don't dress the way you want me to

Why do you say you love me? When all it does is hurt. Why do you say you love me? When you dont really care at all. Why do you say you love me? And how you always talk about other girls. Why do you say you love me? When you know you dont mean it at all. Why do you say you love me? Is it just so you can hear me say i love you back. Why do you say you love me? When your probably saying it to many other girls. Why do you say you love me? And make it sound so real. Why do you say you love me? I think you like giving me false hope. Why do you say you love me? then you say friendship is all we'll ever have. Why do you say you love

I'm not stupid, I know what you do, I know how you are, I somehow understand you. But you don't understand me, You don't understand why I am the way I am. You call me my mother, Is it a crime to be like her? Just because she's always been there for me? Just because she's the only one that cares about me? Just because? If you even had a clue to what goes on, Maybe you would care too.

This pain is just too real. I wish I couldn't feel. I'd much rather be dead, than live with what you said. My heart is bleeding now. I just wish that I knew how. To take the pain away. On my darkest day. I'm broken because of you. And all the things you do. Tears fall from my eyes. They're just pain in disguise. My world is indeed shattered. To you, I never mattered. It is you I despise. So sick of your lies. Overcome by misery. You're a disease that plagues me. I want this all to end. I can no longer pretend. This is my fate. It is you that I hate. All your cheats and lies. Have led to my demise.